My Thoughts

Packing

2007-05-07T13:15:00.000-05:00

I'm in the process of moving....well actually i'm in the packing phase. I've come accross so many things that i have kept throught the years. I'm not a pack rat by any means, but I've hung on to a lot of stuff. I've found a ton of ald photos that i had forgotten about, and i have spent some time going down memory lane. I am so thankful that i grew up in a time that had cameras......as just looking at old ones can bring me back to a day and time that i have all but forgotten. Packing for me is a little overwhelming. I am distrated very easily. I stop to look through yearbooks, try on old clothes and put on a face mask that i bought a year ago, and hope that my face doesnt turn purple. It didn't, but i accepted that everything has an expiry date, and threw it out. I am trying to be so good about making piles for donation, garbage and things to be packed up and stored away. I have come accross some funny things...my junior prom picture..i can't decide what was worse, my dress or my hair? a recording of me singing 'that's what friends are for' at age 9 and, a bunch of old cards and love letters......all of which have made me laugh out loud. I have also found out that i am a cosmetic/toileties whore...i think most women are, but i have enough lotions to soften the legs of an entire town......why? i have no idea. And, where do all these damn cords and cables come from? i'm afraid to throw them out in case i will need them for something later.....but i suppose if i haven't used them in the past 3 years the chances of me using them at all are pretty slim.......okay, garbage. My mother says 'use this move to cleanse your life of things you don't need'......wouldn't it be great if you could take everything you don;t need in life and throw it out. Stres in this bag, bad hair and pms in that bag,sleezy men and catty women over there and bills in the shredder.......that would be wonderful.

Ok back to reality and packing....ugghhh so much packing, and so many distractions.

we all fall down

2007-03-05T13:10:00.000-06:00

When i started this blog, i had the best of intentions of keeping up with it as often as i could.......then life got in the way. It's so easy to say i've been busy, but i have......too busy?, well probably not, but busy none the less.
It really amazes me how time has the ability to rush right past you, and at times can seem to come to an all together freeze. This makes me think of that Adam Sandler movie 'Click'....silly little movie....but has a moral to it i suppose. Although, there are times when i wish i had a remote to fast forward or rewind or pause my life.....gosh wouldn't that be great. I would FF through hangovers, boring conversations, gyno visits and my period....rewind to great laughs, the carefree times of being a child, and spending time with my grandmother, oh i i can't forget all the times i said something stupid, i'd rewind those moments and say something better. i'd pause magical moments, like passionate kisses, sundays that i wish lasted forever, and the last time i saw loved ones that have since passed. I guess thats the beauty of life, there is no remote. We have to go through life knowing that there is no moment that we will have again. That all the things we go through in life, whether good or bad, make us who we are. Actually i'm not sure how i feel about that....do all the good and bad moments really make us who we are??? How does enduring a heartbreak make us who we are? How does having someone you love taken from you make us who we are? Why do some people go through so much suffering in life, while others seem to breeze right through it with a perma smile on there face? wow, why am i getting so deep? I guess bottom line, is that life happens...time keeps moving on, shitty things happen and we all fall down. I'm so glad that i have you to help me get up again.

Squirrels

2006-10-12T22:10:00.000-05:00

The other day, i was enjoying a drink on the patio of Cabana's with some friends, when all of a sudden i felt rain drops on my head.........strange though, because it wasn't raining. I dont know why i touched the wet spot on my head , natural reaction i suppose......i then smelled it, thinking that if its water it won't smell...........oh my god it STUNK.......i even made my friends smell...i'm a good friend like that.....we were all saying oh my god, what is that.......then we look up to the tree that is right above us and see the culprit......a friggen Squirrel.........yes, i was pissed on by a squirrel.........out of all of us sitting there, the little bugger chose me to relieve himself on. So now i have been shit on by a bird, barfed on by a baby and pissed on by a squirrel.....i'm wondering if that's it. Maybe i've had my share for my life, man i hope so. Thankfully i didn't let it ruin my night......i tried to rinse it out of my hair, pulled it back and spritzed some perfume in my hair......one good thing though.....i was jokingly telling the waiter and he gave me a free glass of wine.........I bloody well think so, that's the least he could have done....ha ha oh well nothing that a good shower didn't cure.

Spiders

2006-09-18T11:18:00.000-05:00

Ok, go on and call me a wimp for what i am about to say, but I HATE SPIDERS!!! It's not something i try to hide either.....i am so scared of them. I'm not really sure why.....i mean they're gross and creepy crawly and some are even deadly, but there are certainly worse things i could be afraid of. My mum said that as a baby, i ate a spider......maybe her freaking out over it gave me my fear, i don;t know. Now they don;t just scare me.....they terrify me. If i see one on a wall in my house i have to leave that room until someone gets rid of it.....heaven forbid i am alone....then i normally get out the vaccum cleaner and suck it up..........sorry if anyone thinks that is cruel.....but thats as close as i care to get to them. If one happens to crawl on me........forget it........i admit i scream like a baby, breaking all sorts of sound barriers.

I'm talking about this because i had an encounter with a big ass spider this weekend.
So there i was at a friends house playing poker...minding my business and taking everyones money (hee hee i was the big winner, but i'm not one to brag) and just as i picked up my cards to look at them.....i felt something on my left wrist....i looked down and saw a huge spider. What happened next was all a blur to me......somehow i knocked it off me.....jumped out of my chair......my cards, poker chips and beer went flying........i did some kind of maneuver into the kitchen....reminded me of the triple jump from Track and field. The whole time iwas so scared that i couldn't even scream.......my friends are looking at me like i'm crazy, until they see the spider. Ricky, to the rescue, picks up the spider and with his buddaesque thinking, places the big ass spider safely outside. Meanwhile, my heart felt like it was going to come out of my chest......it took me a good chunk of time and a couple beers to slow it down and stop my hands from shaking. So there you have it................i'm a complete baby around spiders. It's so girlie of me to be scared of them, i know but i can't help it. Em thinks its funny.........keep laughing ........karma baby. :)

Good Morning

2006-09-22T07:25:00.000-05:00

I'm really not much of a morning person. I normally have to hit the snooze button anywhere from 2-5 times. As i get older, i'm slowly getting better and better at doing early mornings........maybe in 10years i'll be able to wake up with a smile.

I have a meeting with my manager to discuss what's next. There is always a 'what's next' in this business. As soon as you finish an album or a show, you can't revel in the moment too long.....people are more concerned about what you're working on.....it is hard for me to have an ego, because i don't have time to sit and think about what i have accomplished....i have to worry about making a better album, or doing a better show. I have recently finished up some new tracks, that i am super pumped about. Now to figure out the next step. The toughest part about this industry, is that it is an industry based on opinion.......and lord knows, everyone has an opinion. The few people how have heard the new songs, seem to really like them.....but what will everyone else think? There is no way of knowing until i put them out there. I'm not sure when that will be, but i'll keep you posted.

I just spoke with my friend joe yesterday.......i haven't touched base with him in a while.......he just got married, and i am so happy for him. he sent me a couple pictures of his wedding. the first one i opened made me laugh out loud......he's such a joker.......here is the picture.

Thanks for the laugh joe. Congrats to you and Charlene.
Well, i need to go finish getting ready....it's raining and i need to figure out what to do with my hair so that it doesn't turn into a frizz ball by early afternoon.

Love Danni

Beautiful day

2006-09-15T13:55:00.000-05:00

origianally written on Sept 15th

The sun is shining and there is a slight cool breeze in the air.....ahhh, i love it. Isn't it odd that during the frigid winter months we pray and pray for summer to hurry up and warm our feet and noses, yet when summer rolls in and leaves us with Allergy exploding heads and sunburns that we hope don't turn into wrinkles too soon, we pray and pray for the frigid winter air.........i'm sure it can't be just me who thinks this way. I can't wait to stock up on firewood and thaw my feet in front of a blazing fire........i'm ready for winter. Don't get me wrong, having grown up in Toronto Canada i am a fan of all seasons, but i think winter is my favourite.

we always want what we don;t have.... i think it's human nature. When its summer, we want winter, if you have curly hair you want straight hair and visa versa. I am learning to accept and embrace the things i do have and not waste too much time wanting more, or better. Its always good to dream and to aspire....i think without those, you are just simply existing....but there is a fine line between settling in life and wasting it away wishing for what cannot be. sometimes i wonder if we are the only species that dream and desire......i mean i wonder if ants ever pause for a moment and wish for a bigger colony, or for a bigger cookie crumb to fall right next to them. Do monkeys ever wish that they had smaller asses, or longer tails? random thought i know, but still one of my thoughts.

I saw a show on TV not too long ago about these young girls of 10 and 11 who were going to extreme measures to look like the women in magaizines or hollywood movies. young girls who should be playing with dolls andplaying jump rope, starving themselves to be "beautiful".....it breaks my heart. I don't remember ever worrying about that when i was 10 years old......i was too busy playing hide and seek and putting band aids on my scraped knees. I pray that my nieces can hold on to their youthful innocence for as long as they can..... i worry about whether or not it will get worse and all children will end up tarnished by social standards. what is to become of the children of tomorrow...............you can drive yourself crazy thinking about how messed up the world is...believe me. There is a bird chirping outside....for a moment it makes me smile and feel light hearted. i love the simple things in life.

The Second One

2006-09-14T23:28:00.000-05:00

Why is this titled the second one? simple really......after spending an hour writing my very first blog, i managed to somehow lose it and am now holding myself back from putting my foot through my computer.

So.......my second blog. Blog, what a word. ..I t makes me think of blah....or the british slang for toilet..Bog. I digress....those of you who know me, know i tend to do that a lot. Sometimes i feel like my mind is going a mile a minute and its all i can do to try and keep up with my thoughts...that's why i have called my blog 'My Thoughts' That is exactly what this will be, a place for me to write about my ADD thought pattern and fill you in on my happenings. Sometimes my life can be boring and mundane and at other times it is chaotic and wonderfully exciting.

Today was just a pretty normal day. i took a dear friend to the airport today, she is meeting her Dad in Chicago to take him to a cubs game for his 60th birthday. i think that is such a precious thing to do.....you see her dad has always wanted to go see the cubs play. I'm not much of a baseball fan, but i still think its a precious gift to give. My Dad turned 60 in March and all i gave him was a headache. I'm kidding.....i got him some silver monogrammed cufflinks.......i wish i could have taken my dad to see the Toronto blue jays play (thats his team) but my parents are living in mongolia right now and thats one hell of a flight just to see a baseball game. I know you may be saying 'where the fuck is Mongolia?' I asked the same thing when i heard they were going there.....it is literally the other side of the world. They have been there for 2 years (i think) and will be finishing their post there in june. Its snowing there already...when just last week they had weather in the 70's...CRAZY!!! Their winter lasts for most of the year....my poor parents. I spoke with my mum tonight on Skype. The computer is an amazing thing....it frustrates the hell out of me sometimes, but its still pretty amazing. Sometimes, if we're lucky and have a good connection, it sounds like i am talking to them from down the street.....other days the connection is so bad that my parents voices start sounding like a cross between Barry White and R2D2, with a Prince 'Purple Rain' delay.

Tomorrow night i am having drinks with 'my girls'....That is something i look forward to so much......i could never explain to my guy friends the importance of 'girl time'. Lots of laughs and chit chat over even more wine.....I love how girls can talk about ANYTHING with each other. the only way i can explain it to my guys is that they need to watch an episode of 'Sex and the City'.....then they might understand. Saturday will be a good day too. I am going shopping for show clothes....yeah....one of the perks of being an artist is that you HAVE to shop. i need to get a few things...some new jeans and tops and of course, a girl can never have enough shoes. I wonder why women love shoes so much? then Saturday night is poker night......i'm addicted. a group of my bestest friends all get together to play texas hold 'em with good music and even better adult beverages. Sunday i'll probably spend recouping..........god i love sundays.........the day of nothing.......the day you can stay in your pj's all day if you want to, hell some days i don;t even get out of bed, except to pee and get something to drink and eat......yes i love sundays. they are only made more perfect when you have someone to share your day of laziness with :)

It is almost midnight and i still have to paint the nails on my other hand. They are painted black if you care to know. My sleepytime tea awaits me....

Love
Danni